I’ve never been so nervous, it’s rackin upon my mind. I tried to get over it you know, but these god damn weak nerves. People think I lie but that’s absolutely false. I say what I feel at the moment and is that considered lying? absolutely fucking false, people misunderstand things but I don’t know why I even allow other people’s thoughts to get to me. I’m not even referring to people, i’m referring to you. To be honest, i’m completely terrified. Even if I catch a glimpse, my legs are shaking in fear. I don’t know why, but it happens every god damn time. God, what the fuck. I don’t know but it’s so hard to let go. I don’t want to, that’s the thing. We had a good thing going, one of the best I’d say. I felt at home with you. It was something I truly miss, if only I can change what I did. Why did it have to be like that, fuck. I’m a fucking moron,